Surgery, Story, Seth, Pup, School

Hello! So I finally got my surgery! I had it on the 19th so about 2 weeks ago. So far I've lost 20 pounds, but I get weighed again tomorrow. It's been hard sometimes. Everyone is eating and even though I am full after my two tablespoons, I still want to eat. Weird and so chubby I know!
Lets see...What else is going on?
Seth and I are doing good. He has totally been there for me since we got home from the hospital. It's been kinda weird, but nice at the same time. I am worried it is just another honeymoon phase, but I guess we will see.
Story....wow, I just don't know. The talk was that this summer she was gonna come here. It would be easier to transfer the kids schools and all that in the summer time. But then she started talking about buying a house with her husband still. So I kinda assumed her coming her was out. I'm stuck on how to fell. What good is a relationship if I can't be honest with her? And when it comes to my feelings I always have to lie and pretend everything is perfect when it's not. And I do it. I do it cause it's what she wants. And as her friend she tells me about her and her husband and how well they got along or that they had sex and as someone who loves her the way I do, it hurts to hear that. I think it would be easier for me to just be her friend. Cause as her friend I know there are boundaries and as her friend I can be her friend and not the jealous heart broken girlfriend. I don't think she would understand if I tried to explain that to her, so here I am pretending everything is okay while I am on the phone and crying all the other times. She wants the comfort. She wants the house and someone to provide for her and take care of her. I can't give that to her. So I know it's a lost cause and I am accepting that now.
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What else??
Someone told me I was still a puppy even though Seth didn't want me as one, he said I am just a stray dog. lol That totally made my day!!
I cannot wait for this semester to get over with!! Almost done!
Okay so that's it for now.