Surgery, Story, Seth, Pup, School

Hello! So I finally got my surgery! I had it on the 19th so about 2 weeks ago. So far I've lost 20 pounds, but I get weighed again tomorrow. It's been hard sometimes. Everyone is eating and even though I am full after my two tablespoons, I still want to eat. Weird and so chubby I know!
Lets see...What else is going on?
Seth and I are doing good. He has totally been there for me since we got home from the hospital. It's been kinda weird, but nice at the same time. I am worried it is just another honeymoon phase, but I guess we will see.
Story....wow, I just don't know. The talk was that this summer she was gonna come here. It would be easier to transfer the kids schools and all that in the summer time. But then she started talking about buying a house with her husband still. So I kinda assumed her coming her was out. I'm stuck on how to fell. What good is a relationship if I can't be honest with her? And when it comes to my feelings I always have to lie and pretend everything is perfect when it's not. And I do it. I do it cause it's what she wants. And as her friend she tells me about her and her husband and how well they got along or that they had sex and as someone who loves her the way I do, it hurts to hear that. I think it would be easier for me to just be her friend. Cause as her friend I know there are boundaries and as her friend I can be her friend and not the jealous heart broken girlfriend. I don't think she would understand if I tried to explain that to her, so here I am pretending everything is okay while I am on the phone and crying all the other times. She wants the comfort. She wants the house and someone to provide for her and take care of her. I can't give that to her. So I know it's a lost cause and I am accepting that now.
Ummm...
What else??
Someone told me I was still a puppy even though Seth didn't want me as one, he said I am just a stray dog. lol That totally made my day!!
I cannot wait for this semester to get over with!! Almost done!
Okay so that's it for now.

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Okay...Well here it is, another day. I made it through my first semester of college!!! And with a 3.7 GPA...not bad! Second semester is not going as well, but it's okay. I am aproved again for my surgery. We will set the date in a couple days!!

Seth....IDK we are the same ole same ole. Nothing really had changed. I just choose not to notice most the time. Bubby is in school and loving it, though he is sick right now with a bad fever. Bean is...well Bean is Bean. Snotty, stuck up, don't listen, gives me big kisses and sings to me kinda girl! lol She is great.

Story..wow that one needs it's own post..I'll get to it after my homework is done. He is my girl and I as madly in love with her as I ever was. She is coming to stay the weekend. I am nervous, but it will be the best to get to have her in my arms again.

And that is about it for now. I got a test I gotta take.. And gotta get back in the swing of life.

My day, and a sex recap lol

Today has been a long day..It just dragged on and on and on. But it wasn't a bad day. I actually slept most the morning and afternoon. Bubby is sick and went to grandmas after school on wensday and we kept him home today. She said she was going to pick up Bean at 3 today and, surprise, surprise she decided she wasn't going to come. She does that every time, she was wants Bubby to stay the night and not Bean. I told her it was fucked up that I have to explain why Bubby gets to go to grandmas and not Bean, when she has been dressed and waiting to go.
So she showed up and picked up Bean...
Whatever, I am rambling. I had ASL tonight. We had a test, I think I aced it. In three weeks they are having a silent dinner. I can't wait to go to that! I am nervous, what if I end up being a wall flower....
Oh well, we'll see how it goes.
Seth and I are okay. We have been battling the whole lying issues...He can't stop lying over the stupidest shit. And it's not anything really important. So I am trying to not be the nagging wife. It's his laptop and if he fucks it up it's his fault. So that is the attitude I am trying to take. But sometimes I can't help but get pissy.
On another note we had some good sex. lol We watched this tv show episode called The Hunger. In one of the episodes this guy keeps asking this girl if another guy touched her and finally she said yes, on her shoulder. So he bit her hella hard on the shoulder and smacked her ass a couple times. He had her cuffed with her arms stretched out to either side, and he face down on the bed. He fucked her from behind and put a scarf around her face and used to to hold her head up while he fucked her... Anyways I told D about it and that it would have been hotter if it was around her neck. Cause her nose and her lip are all distorted and it just looked more funny than anything.
Any how Seth listened and when we started fucking he pulled a belt around my neck...omg If I can figure out how to come in doggie style I would have been in Orgasm Heaven!

So yeah that's my big news for the day. haha.