It's not all bad

Sometimes..okay all the time...I forget to write about the good things. Nothing is like it used to be. So to update on Seth... We still have some issues, but for the last 3 weeks we have been working a new tactic and it's working. Seth is also going to school and it gives us some time apart. First of that really helps! lol We were together all the time, everyday. So this way we get a break. Not only that but now Bub is in school too and Bean stays with a sitter while we are at school, so the time we do spend together is spent together and not chasing kids around.
We fought quite a bit about the computer and all the video games, but that has cut way down too. I have decided that we have enough shit and me digging for more isn't helping. I do still get on him a bit, when we are doing family stuff and he won't get off. but he is getting better. Yesterday we made snowmen and candy canes and little decorations for the windows with the kids and he was all involved. That was great.
We really have been working together to make things work and stick to the things the therapist said. And things have been pretty good.
The whole deal with Story....yeah that's it's own shit. She is a woman and she has got her own shit going on. It doesn't change the fact that I love her, cause I do. She confuses me, but I am learning to deal with that. I have my own life to worry about and she has hers.
The thing about this blog is that other than you that do read it occasionally no one in my life does..so it's one of those things I can just word vomit what ever is in my head. I will try to remember to put the good things to, cause things are really different than they were.
The puppy play...I'm not upset about it. I know what would happen. But it was worth a shot. I Seth is not capable of being dominate or anything like that. And yeah, it's taken me a a while but that is how it is and I have stopped pushing it. It is what it is.

I am working on my diet for the surgery and that sucks ass. I am starving and getting headaches everyday. But I have decided I have to buck the fuck up and do it now or it's not going to happen. So I am having my final meal for lunch today..but even that is kinda healthy. Artichoke pizza on thin crust..ohhh it's so yummy!
So off to do the last minute homework!