My day, and a sex recap lol

Today has been a long day..It just dragged on and on and on. But it wasn't a bad day. I actually slept most the morning and afternoon. Bubby is sick and went to grandmas after school on wensday and we kept him home today. She said she was going to pick up Bean at 3 today and, surprise, surprise she decided she wasn't going to come. She does that every time, she was wants Bubby to stay the night and not Bean. I told her it was fucked up that I have to explain why Bubby gets to go to grandmas and not Bean, when she has been dressed and waiting to go.
So she showed up and picked up Bean...
Whatever, I am rambling. I had ASL tonight. We had a test, I think I aced it. In three weeks they are having a silent dinner. I can't wait to go to that! I am nervous, what if I end up being a wall flower....
Oh well, we'll see how it goes.
Seth and I are okay. We have been battling the whole lying issues...He can't stop lying over the stupidest shit. And it's not anything really important. So I am trying to not be the nagging wife. It's his laptop and if he fucks it up it's his fault. So that is the attitude I am trying to take. But sometimes I can't help but get pissy.
On another note we had some good sex. lol We watched this tv show episode called The Hunger. In one of the episodes this guy keeps asking this girl if another guy touched her and finally she said yes, on her shoulder. So he bit her hella hard on the shoulder and smacked her ass a couple times. He had her cuffed with her arms stretched out to either side, and he face down on the bed. He fucked her from behind and put a scarf around her face and used to to hold her head up while he fucked her... Anyways I told D about it and that it would have been hotter if it was around her neck. Cause her nose and her lip are all distorted and it just looked more funny than anything.
Any how Seth listened and when we started fucking he pulled a belt around my neck...omg If I can figure out how to come in doggie style I would have been in Orgasm Heaven!

So yeah that's my big news for the day. haha.

New Moon

OMG a new trailer!! I can't fucking wait!!!

New Moon

OMG...Almost makes me wish I was still in the Daddy/daughter shit, just so I have an excuse to be so excited. haha

if it's not one thing it's another

I cried. All day yesterday, i cried. And the whole time I cried he was looking at Porn. All his fake promises of I'll make it better and I love you....It's all bull shit. He just sat there watching me hurt and looking at porn... I can't take any more of this. My friend is going to California soon. I think I am going with her.

40 tips

Sounds so simple doesn't it.... Maybe it's not to late for someone else to use this advice.




1. Remember that one put-down can erase hours of kindness you give to your partner. Follow James Brolin’s advice: “Treat each other like eggs.”

2. It’s OK to disagree: if two people always agree, one of them isn’t necessary.

3. Compliment your partner often.

4. Develop good listening skills.

5. Keep in mind that we’re all trying to accomplish the same objectives in a relationship: acceptance, support, and affection.

6. Learn to handle conflict constructively.

7. Never say: “I told you so.”

8. Don’t take each other for granted.

9. Serve her breakfast in bed; include a long-stemmed red rose.

10. Have a sense of humor.

11. Be flexible.

12. Understand the importance of small touches and caresses.

13. Massage their feet; and give them a back rub.

14. Learn to tango.

15. Never betray their confidence.

16. Plan a lunch date.

17. Create a scrap book of your first year together.

18. Plan little surprises.

19. Keep a lock of his hair in a heart-shaped locket.

20. Flirt with each other.

21. Share the household chores.

22. Ride a bicycle built for two.

23. Never forget a single anniversary. Create a meaningful anniversary ritual.

24. Watch out for each other’s best interests.

25. Take a horse-drawn carriage ride.

26. Admit it when you’re wrong.

27. Befriend his/her friends.

28. Write each other love letters.

29. Follow William James’ advice: “The art of being wise is the art of knowing what to overlook.”

30. Make romance a habit.

31. Don’t expect perfection.

32. Share your dreams with each other.

33. Be best friends as well as lovers.

34. Hold hands.

35. Don’t interrupt each other.

36. Make lots of eye contact.

37. Make a list for them: 101 reasons why I love you.

38. Call just to say “I love you”.

39. Make your partner feel special.

40. Promise each other to grow old together. Keep your promise.

Spongebob Squarepants

Just a couple pics from the party. It's my Bean and my bub. Me and the other one is me and Ann. The party was a roit! It was so awesome. WE had like 30 people here.
Anyways, just wanted to put up a couple pics.
I'll write more later... my head is killing me!

Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?

Well...Hi. Things are going alright. I talked to our therapist (provided by CPS) and our CPS worker. They both are going to close our case on the 5th of August. They said we have done everything and everything looks good.
Somehow the therapist has got Seth out looking for a job. I am trying to be supportive. He expects me to shout it from the rooftops that he got an interview. But this isn't the first time he has got a job. He's fine with working until the money has to go to bills. So I am being supportive, reserved, but still supportive.
Saturday is my Bean's 2nd birthday! Right now she is all about Spongebob. It is going to be awesome. I painted a spongebob and cut the face out so we can take pics of the kids. I painted a giant pineapple to play pin the sponge in his house.
Plus limbo and a shit load of bubbles. lol
God, it's going to be great!
I downloading all the spongebob music from the shows and some Harry Bellafonte and beach boys. I can't wait for Saturday!!!

So that's all that is really going on. Things will Seth have been okay. I haven't told him yet. But I think he knows....
When we have sex he spends the whole time describing Story to me or someone else. And all these details.
It ends up making me cry... Like it's weird. I am nowhere and then he starts telling me about some great night making out with a girl and taking her home... and so on. By then I....Well I just explode.... But I end up crying. I think it's out of the guilt. Guilt that I haven't told him. Or guilt cause....
Well shit I raised Catholic...I should just naturally have anot of guilt. lol

I don't know if I mentioned my sister on here.... She's out of job corps. She has her own apartment and a boyfriend. She has no food so she and her bf stay at my house all the time. Today I had to go to the food pantry. It was embarassing. But I just needed a little help to make it till the end of the month. I made gucii man (Her bf) go with me. He still don't have a job. It's sad. He is alot like Seth. The games, the lies...Ann is terrified of ending up like me. I don't blame her. She has watched this go on for all 6 years. I'm scared too.

Fear of the unknown....

So that's it for now. Gotta eat dinner and watch Harper Valley PTA.. haha.